i wonder what it's like to feel safe in an embrace, with odor lingering around, feeling belonged at last. but the truth is i ll never know where i belong, perhaps the best thing is to stop wondering and explore more marvelous things in life. that shall include to learn possible skills as much as i can get my hands into.
there shall be warmth, the oddest sensation would be the freling of trusting someone you knew probably in just a couple of months, years, but not as long as you know yourself. anyway, i destruct myself so i shouldn't question anything.
lying down bare naked emotionally is a very scary thing being compared to being nude, that's for sure.
i genuinely do not know if i am actually brave to feel safe being all by myself. instincts are driving me crazy, but i cannot blame them.
i am human, after all.